Day Now On*dream oh dreamers.

finally i caught myself unconscious. so sad to look around me have change a lot without realize it.

what a pathetic i'm. still misjudge myself. i losing my path in daylight, watching my mate already do they best. achieve their dream. look others gain their strength even fall a lot of time. while me become a scum in my on dream. goes talk to the mirror like old time " look at u!" ," why don't u give yourself a chance? ".

"don't cheat with your own self. u know what drag u into this way. u know u have no strength. u have no right in this matter. u know they laughing at u. u know no one will bring u up each time u roll down like nangka busuk."

"go chase after her. don't let her go. u know there nothing left worth if she goes. even she doesn't even look at u. it's ok. just go on. let it be. be close to her. look at her eyes,look the way she smile,enjoy every moment with her while there are still have time. it doesn't matter in how she treat u. keep ur love by yourself. perhaps one day she will realize it. yes, it hurt. u know it. damn, but remember. she the true person that u looking all this time. maybe she want u to realize that she doesn't like u at all. but it's ok. u know better than that. it's she right to find someone for herself. u know u will fall this time. i won't accept this fate this time if i lose her. swear i'll not accept it. for 1st time. i fight so hard. so hard till i don't care at all in how it will affect my life on my day on. i do really love her."

nothing to lose. wish u all luck fyzal! all of luck!

p/s : 18 day to go. before she goes. away. 2 far from me.